Changing up my blog

So today I want to start my blog on a note like a YouTube channel kinda. I wanna talk about experiences with school just everyday life in general, I will be typing this like a video just because I do not like showing my face at alll I look weird on camera but um yea. I just got done looking at different videos from https://www.youtube.com/user/blndsundoll4mj and she was talking about different things and how she do certain things. I got to thinking about making my blog more active since I'm turning my idea about my blog. So my first post right now will be about 

Growing up being me I had an easy elementary life but middle school was the roughest life ever. Just because your first bf and heartbreak it just comes to one. In middle school I was called so many names and lost and gained friends. I realized in high school yea you got people talking about people but it's just growing up. In middle school I had alot of friends but in high school I decided the smaller my circle the better my life would be and I'm in the 10th grade now and it's going well but recently something happened to my heart for a guy so I went out with a guy who I got to know for a year and 4 months so far and I loved him as a bestfriend but after we went out he showed me happiness like no  one else showed before. He wasn't in the country on summer break and I missed him everyday that we were away he told me he was moving to the country he was in over the summer but on the first day of school I saw him and he surprised me because I wasn't expecting him to be there it was the best gift ever. At first our relationship was unbreakable and it was like 2 months went by and he changed once he got back in school with his brother. It was like I saw a different bf and bestfriend. He started treating me different it was like our relationship was being changed and it was getting to me. One day I wanted a true answer like why even go out with me if it's just ending in heartbreak and I got my answer he only went out with me to keep me away from hurt and safe. It was so sweet and nice but I just possibly wouldn't ever go back to being his bestfriend even tho I currently am it's going to be awhile until my heart snaps back from loving him more then a bestfriend. Right now while typing this I love him but he may never know ... just because deep down I don't wan to be rejected by him saying he doesn't love me. For some reason I have a feeling that he wants to be in a relationship with me but scared to fall in love again get hurt like he probably did in his past somewhere.

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